1. I am grateful for the chance to come home to my mom and my sister and my two dogs and relax with them.
2. I am grateful for peace of mind about him, and for all the negative thoughts, and the fury and the anger of last night, that filled me to the point of bursting, to have abated, after I prayed about it, and upon waking up this morning.
3. I'm grateful to have woken up in a good mood this morning.
4. I'm grateful that I found the building quickly, and that even though a voice was telling me to turn the other way, and that it was behind me, I kept walking forward and didn't even realize that I was headed in the right direction.
5. I am grateful for possible new beginnings.
6. I am grateful for good feelings and good vibes from new people and new places.
7. I am grateful that typing this out on a computer makes me think about the actual feeling of gratitude a bit more.
8. I am grateful for my sponsor.
9. I am grateful for my dogs, and for how cute and sweet and soft they are, and how excited they always are to see me, and how that love will never, ever go away.
10. I am grateful for my apartment but sometimes I am even more grateful to come to my mom's house.
11. I am grateful that he maybe read some of my last notes, and that he had had enough, and shut me off. I think that's a healthy thing to do, in light of my words. I would probably do the same.
12. So I am grateful to see that I cause a reaction in the world, be it for good or bad, though in this case, it was bad.
13. I am grateful for my friends: Aneeta, Meta, Lila, Mara, the list goes on and on....
14. I am grateful that my mom and Mara said "You have a different look about you, like, that you're not....so....I don't know...angry, or hard on yourself." So I'm glad that that could be seen on my face.
15. I am grateful that peace does not have to come at the expense of inaction, but is further fostered by acting well.
16. I am grateful that there are good feelings about him, in proportion to the good thoughts I think and the good feelings I have about myself, because for a long time, they all seemed incompatible.
17. I pray that one day soon he and I can reconcile. I'm not asking to reunite, but just to have each other in our lives, actively, and have forgiveness.
18. I am grateful for my hair straightener.
19. I am grateful for clean clothes this morning.
20. I am grateful for the clarity and good decision-making skills that come with recognizing that I have certain needs that are very basic, and that I hurt myself if I neglect or ignore those.
21. I am grateful that today was a good day, and that this doesn't mean that I will die tonight, but that I will wake up tomorrow, and have another chance to do good, right things. I know it will be a different day than today, but I can also make it a different kind of a good day.
22. I pray for his forgiveness, that I hurt him.
23. I pray for direction in life. I don't want to just float around. I want to have a target of which I am proud, so that I can be an arrow towards that target, and just fly like the wind.
24. I am grateful to know what is important enough to focus on, and
25. I pray to grow in awareness of those important things.
26. I am grateful for to-do lists.
27. I am grateful for my phone, but more than that, I am grateful that at times, I can turn the ringer off, and put it down.
28. I pray for his forgiveness.
29. I pray that I get my act together in terms of my health plan.
30. I am grateful for that sandwich from Lil' Guys.
31. I am grateful that though I was anxious about coming home, I told myself that I could just relax with it, and remember myself and the peace of today, and that I'd be able to be immune from it.
32. I am grateful that this worked, and that I have a hand in controlling my anxiety, to some degree.
33. I hope that I grow in this ability.
34. I am grateful that everything I wanted to bring fit in one huge bag.
35. I am grateful for a cab driver that was so chatty and animated that it made me think that if law of attraction is true, then I must be growing in health, to attract a cab driver like that, which is a great thing.
36. I pray for him.
37. I am grateful that I no longer think of R---, and that when I do, I am able to put his behavior in perspective.
38. I pray to be able to understand why I couldn't reconcile showing affection to her with having feelings for him.
39. I am grateful for the peace of mind that comes with feeling good about my life.
40. I am grateful for medication, and for an increase in medication.
41. I am grateful for people around me who are rooting for me.
42. I pray that feeling good doesn't mean complacency, or indolence.
43. I pray that I never have again have to go too far in order to know how far is too far.
44. I am grateful to understand the damage done when I don't express myself consistently, regardless of how the other person might react to it.
45. But even more than that, I am grateful to know that when something doesn't feel right, that I have a responsibility to move away from it, if I can't change it.
46. I am grateful for the Serenity Prayer.
47. I am grateful to know the amount of rage that I am capable of, and to let it out in a healthier, less-public way, next time.
48. I am grateful to understand, again, that when I lash out and hurt someone, I hurt myself, as well. I'd be willing to bet that I hurt myself more, actually.
49. I am grateful for attitude.
50. I am grateful to get tired.
51. I pray for more awareness of what I can change and what I cannot change.
52. I am grateful that I get to use good bath products tomorrow.
53. I am grateful for financial assistance from my mom.
54. I am grateful for repercussions.
55. I am grateful to hear my mom laugh.
56. I am grateful for her support and for her patience.
57. I am grateful for a really special meeting tonight.
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