I am so frustrated.
I need to connect to someone, someone that I want to be around, who is fun to be around, whom I can be my best self around, and I can’t do that at this moment, and it frustrates me insanely.
I am turning to substitutes to falsely fill the need and I am shaking in my chair, twitching my legs out of nervousness and anxiety, because I am so impoverished. I don’t know how to solve this.
I want to connect to him but he’s not reaching out back to me. I am waiting for a response from him, but it’s been over a week and I’m still here, waiting. He’s the only one I feel like being open to, and with. But I sit here, unrequited. It’s very difficult.
I need to be being loved by someone whom I love equally as intensely.
I need that reciprocation. I need that reflection, that connection.
I’m dying for a connection.